Ups and Downs

It's hard to keep track off everything at present. There's so many things going on right now that induce such diverse thoughts and feelings. Amoungst these are anger, hate, depression and hopelesness. At the same time I'm feeling happyness, love, and hope about other situations. These contradiction of feelings are increadably draining. This adds the feelings of weakness and nausia. At least feeling means I'm alive.