Ups and Downs

It's hard to keep track off everything at present. There's so many things going on right now that induce such diverse thoughts and feelings. Amoungst these are anger, hate, depression and hopelesness. At the same time I'm feeling happyness, love, and hope about other situations. These contradiction of feelings are increadably draining. This adds the feelings of weakness and nausia. At least feeling means I'm alive.

Time's the greatest healer?

I haven't been here in a while.

This is such a fitting statement for so many things right now. At first, I felt like I was just traveling in one big, repetative circle. Same story. Same Faces. Same feelings. Now I see it's been a little different each time.
There's no obvious pattern to the severity of the feelings. The last time seamed the hardest, this time seamed a little easier. It might just be that this time I'm learning to accept it and see things how they really are. How they've almost always been.

It's hard to feel everything, so I'm shutting off a bit.